THANKS.

My friend Nekel just inspired me to write about what I'm thankful for... Cause there's a whole lot of things right now! I'm one of those people that as soon as Halloween is over I listen to the N'SYNC Christmas album daily, which even though I listen to it year round I guess it's still considered Christmas music? Who knows. But back to my point! I don't really pay much attention to what Thanksgiving is all about. FOOD. Yes, but no. THANKS GIVING. Heavenly Father has given me so many things I should appreciate more than I really do. So for the rest of this month, and next, I'm going to do my best to recognize these things.

Today I am grateful for...

• Fleetwood Mac
• People that come visit me at work
• Exercise
• The sound of Athletic Tape tearing
• Earrings
• Smiley faces in texts :)
• Pictures of my nieces and nephews in my family room
• A hard working dad who's away on business. I don't give him enough credit for what he does.
• Tailgates on trucks
• Pennies
• The fact that the Christmas dance is in a month. I'm SO excited.
• The sunset
• Oranges
• Sitting at a stop light when it's dark outside

I have just been REAL happy the past two weeks. There are quite a few things that have contributed to this, but they all have made me be ME. I really feel like I have been Courtney for the first time in a long time. Being who I want to be and having fun with the people around me. I mean, there are still things that I'm not a fan of that make me frustrated and mad and stressed out. But heck. We're supposed to go through things like that. Errrrything that happens happens for a reason. Even if we go months and months... and months without knowing why, there will be that day when it makes sense and you're grateful for it. It happens! Life is just... It's just nice.

One of THOSE Nights

HI. I made a blog. And I feel weird that this is my very first post, but it's what I'm feeling. So here!

Tonight's been a rough night. I went to the Davis game and just felt like an outsider. I don't even know why! Maybe it's because everyone's talking about Homecoming and such? Or maybe because I've just been stuck on the fact that I'm almost 17 and still haven't gone on a date yet?There are a lot of things it could be. I just want to fast-forward time!

So I go home after the game... and watch Boy Meets World and Say Yes to the Dress. NOT A GOOD CHOICE WHEN YOU'RE IN THIS MOOD. It just made me sad! First of al, Corey and Topanga! Why do they have to be so cute?! Then.. there was the cutest couple ever looking for a dress. You could tell how much they cared about eachother by the way they looked at eachother. AND. He was a cowboy. That just pushed me over the edge. All I want is a nice cowboy who cares about me and shows it! (Oh look. A commercial with that couple just came on tv again... Thanks.) I'm just having a girl night. Wanting to have a guy that would do anything for you to be happy. I know that being married doesn't mean life is all dandy after you say "I Do." I just look at it as you always having a best friend there for you. He's there when you're at your highest AND your lowest. I don't know, maybe I think about this too often?

What shall I do to feel better? Go get Willy and sing the song I wrote the last time I was in this mood. YEAH, I wrote a song when I was mad about guy(s). It makes me REAL emotional sometimes when I sing it. But, it makes me feel like T-Swift and that all on it's own just makes me feel better. :)